Being 4-in-1....

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I dont actually understand why some people take pictures of themselves when they go travelling. Isnt the whole point of travelling to see something new? I think they need evidence to show that they were really at those places or they have difficulty identifying themselves, so they need constant reminders ;)

Being 4-in-1 - having a good eye, a good camera, steady hands and innate talent to create beautiful pictures - i prefer to take pictures of nature, good architecture, random shots of unknown people.

Thats why i have problem finding pictures of myself in my albums, and once in awhile i have pictures of my friends which i take out of reluctance usually.

And no it has nothing to do with me being fussy about how i look in pictures...thats such a silly thought! Which is why I never lose the patience to pose for a shot taken by my friends... :)

when i once had a not so boring routine...

I always like the fact that there were so many interesting things happening in my life... Things that I liked in my daily routine include :

- every morning, I get up early, with no heavy heart to go to work

- at 7:30 am every morning as I head towards the bus stop, I would bump into this cute little girl about 4 years of age, singing and giggling as she holds her grandfather’s hand to go to the nursery school

- on the bus, I would sit at the exact same seat, the 3 seater near the exit door, with my 2 other friends.

- on my way to college, I would send my morning greetings to ‘my close gang of friends’

- I see the cleaning lady, mopping the parquet floor as I stepped into my college building and we greet each other ‘good morning'

- I sit by the window of the class, giving me a clear and vivid picture of how beautiful the world is... 

- I get to walk along Olympus Road, everyday evening with pleasure from my day's class, whereas everyone else would usually drop by the road only after work to do some shopping

- my precious password to start my computer everyday...passwords give the real feeling of security.. 

- when I am meeting my friends for parties/get-together/even jus a cup of tea...

- I still have different groups (ALVERNIA, ALG, AMRITA, now GMU and lots of others) of very close friends, whom I meet regularly.

I am still here (part of me at least is...)

A few of my friends were asking me, why I don't update my blog more often...the crux of the matter is that i do not have much more to say and I feel all that i wanted to say does not really matter to others, except to me. Everything that i wanted to say, has been said, all that in my head and my heart, is already a bleak reminder of my every day...and i just want to be set free...to be given time and space to recover on my own (assuming that there is ever a chance of 'recovery') and that there is a better place for me. 

I find that life is getting harder to sustain and it gets very difficult at times. I keep telling myself, that there are many less fortunate people out there...but if i dont get to cry for myself, then who will cry for me? Its strange how your life can change so drastically, not too long ago, i would be waking up to receive sms-es from the night before and would instantly be sending morning greetings. now, i dont even want to look at my mobile, cause all that i have is a blank screen. no new messages, no sms-es to send to anyone. 

Its funny how one can become invisible suddenly...

Irony? probably... I wanted to be left alone by one group of people, but i ended up being invisible to another.

The past week has been quite eventful... There was so little I did, when there was so much I had to do...

@ d beginning of d week...on monday to be precise.. had an exam..n it was snowing cats and dogs.. was kinda hoping that the exam would get cancelled, but it turned out to b a blessing in disguise.. the exam was damn easy..n m sure i'll hit an A :) well...i always feel it's coz I spoke to my lucky charm before d exam.. d same happened last sem...

Tuesday...had a homework submission, and it got postponed to friday...that is where it all started to go wrong.. First up, didn't bother to start off with the homework @ d beginning of d week...when i knew i was gonna get strangled with it @ d very end.. n when i knew finishing it early could ve saved me from getting into so much of trouble by the end of the week... I still didn't bother.. !!!  Was a hell lot playful, into chatting, and njoyed till wednesday. 

The following are some of the events of last week... that I would remember for a long time....

On wednesday nite... I started off with the homework..of designing a simple systolic filter using DSP 48's and implementing it using VHDL.. for the technical geeks out there, u know what I am talkin about.. 

didn't spend the whole nite on it, but yeah this is where my 65 hour day started..by day i mean, i didn sleep after tat, and all my nites are considered day... I shall remember d wednesday for 1 more reason... coz of d call i made to bellevue, washington.. spoke to my frnd aparna ( who is here after her marriage ) for about 2 hours... n believe me...i hope i dont get billed heavily for that call....neverthless, i had a gr8 time speaking to her, n was really nice to get in contact wit my frnd after a long time... 

thursday n friday... work + homework deadline = m sorry for myself... really didn sleep and had 10 hours of work ( combining d 2 days)... no more xplanations...but yeah..i was dead tired on friday.. came home...had my dinner..n slept.. 

wasn't quite eventful,was it ??? ... well...it was not actually...there were only 2 things which were lingering in my mind... 

hw.............hw..............hw ==  don sleep...don sleep...don sleep

n i successfully wrote d exam, submitted my assignment... :) n also slept for almost close to 20 hrs on 48 in d weekend... now m up n running this week, but as it is spring break, i dont have classes.. m jus going for work.

i hope somethin eventful happens this weekend... wait for my update on it.

Signing off for now !!!