There's a whole lot of new happenings around here and it's all so fast, I'm not sure I'll be ready!
Change #1: A big transition from being completely swamped with thesis work to sitting idle at home(pretending to rest). This was one hell of a week where I still couldn't come to terms with myself, after those sleepless nights.
Change #2: In a few weeks from all that drama, I will be moving out of the house that nourished me in the last 3 years, a family that I will miss forever in my life.
Change #3: Though I am moving to a place that is quite familiar to me now, I still feel like I will be a stranger there first up. Need to get settled in a house, start working, buy a car, and then start my daily routines...huh, no comments.
It all started with the realization that I am leaving this family. It made me funk for days. I don't want to say goodbye to this house and the little ones that grew up with me. There is an 8-year old who loves me, and a 2-year old who grew up with me since his day 1. I'm not ready to leave behind his tiny little hands, the cute little smile and hug I get every time he sees me, the bed where he snuggled with me to catch that extra minutes of sleep, after he wakes up from a nap and so on.
Leaving this house is forcing me to realize that he's growing up so fast and for the first time ever I'm noticing that my little baby isn't so much a little baby anymore. It's breaking my heart that so many days slipped right between my fingers and there is nothing I can do to ever get them back. How did that happen?
I've never been good with change. I constantly crave for it but when it finally happens I have the hardest time saying goodbye. Becoming someone who took care of him makes this ten times worse because practically everything you touch becomes a cherished memory. But that is how life is, and we all learn to live with it. I will miss them for sure, but it is time for me to move on..
Love you Nikhil & Nivedha...This one is for you :)
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